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quarter life

2012 January 27
by Romy

I’m sure this comes as no surprise to anyone my age or older, but I still don’t feel like a grown-up. My use of that phrase (instead of “adult”) says it all; I still feel like a child. Not immature per se, not all the time anyway, but definitely not mature either.

I am reminded of this fact several times a week, because I work with a few people who are a number of years younger than me. That’s when I realize that no, I did not finish high school recently, but actually last set foot in that building almost eight years ago.

Similarly, whenever I watch Friends I still think of those characters as much older than me. Grown-ups. But when Callum said to me the other day, “Isn’t it weird that we’re only a few years younger than them?” I realized that what I was about to say was devastatingly true. “Actually, I think I’m their age now.”

And as silly as it seems, all of a sudden their fictional struggles became a lot more personal to me. I have been out of high school for eight years, out of university for four, and what do I have to show for it? It wasn’t too long ago that none of that worried me, but I’ve suddenly gotten anxious about where my life is going.

It’s true that I am lucky; I am married to a wonderful guy, live in a fantastic city with beautiful weather, and get to do things I love doing.

But during the week, from 9-5, I am a glorified administration assistant. I am awesome at my job, but that doesn’t matter when I spend a large part of my day scanning documents. Because it takes up such a large chunk of our lives, it’s only natural to define yourself by your career; to an extent, at least. And that’s not a good thing when you’re doing something that doesn’t interest you in the slightest.

So that’s when it depresses me, and I decide to abandon any attempt at cooking dinner, order a pizza and sit down to watch Friends.

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